Latest happenings in our world

I went last week for my weekly beta test. I will be SO glad when these are over. My number was down to 315 which is good. Hopefully just one more time and my numbers will be back to zero. (Whew!) I've heard women take months to get back to zero so I'm very pleased that it will have taken me just a little more than a month.

AF showed up just like clock work. Exactly 30 days from the date I miscarried I got AF. Glad my body isn't all jacked up and is still working right. Hopefully that cyst went right along with AF.

On the weight side I'm still losing. I'm down a total of 15lbs so far and I'm feeling SO great. My clothes are getting lose and I LOVE that feeling. Just 25lbs to go until my first goal!!! I was thinking the other day about how I'd treat myself once I got my 40lbs off. I think I'll treat myself to a massage!!! I love getting them and it will also be good to get the blood flowing before transfer. :~)

We have been super busy working on our house lately. We want to get as much done (hopefully everything) as possible before we head back to CA for another FET. Our goal is to finish everything by Jan 1 and then from then until March or April save up enough to do another FET. I'm thrilled with the way the house is looking. We've painted cabinets, put in new flooring in the living room, installed new countertops, and several other smaller projects. We've needed to do these things for a very long time, but kept putting it off thinking we'd adopt again and use the money for that instead. I finally got to a point where I said we should just fix the house and hold off on the adoption (or FET since we are doing that now) until we had the house totally fixed up. Then that would be one less worry for me while going through this next cycle.

I expect I'll be talking to Dr. K in another week or so about what we plan to do next. He told me a while back that we'd talk as soon as my numbers were back to zero. I'm curious to hear his thoughts on our decision to wait and to see what he would suggest doing next time around. I'm also hoping to talk to him about insurance. My insurance will cover up to $14k in fertility treatments, but I'm not sure if we qualify since we used donor embryos. Last time we didn't try to file on insurance because we wanted to hurry up and get the transfer done. We paid out of pocket. This time we are waiting a while so I figure it doesn't hurt to see if insurance will cover at least Dr. K's fee so that all we'll pay for is our travel.

As for emotionally I'm feeling really good. Of course I wish I was still pregnant, but I know now that there was a reason God took my babies home and I can accept that. I'm not 100% ready for another FET, but I'm sure by next year I probably will be. I think for now I'm just so focused on fixing up our house that the FET isn't really on my mind. However, I have been thinking about what we would do if this next transfer doesn't take and I'm 90% sure this transfer will be our last. Yes I know we've only done one so far, but my son will be 9 next year and I just think if this one doesn't work that it's time to stop and accept that he'll be an only child. Not the end of the world by any means, but not something I really wanted either. However, we need to move forward as a family so after this next transfer I think we're done.

All that said, I am SO expecting this time to work!!! :~) I joke with a friend of mine that I'm waiting for her (or she's waiting for me, we're not really sure). She and I met through email when we adopted our boys. We've talked via email almost daily every since (that was 9 years ago) and we've met in person a few times and taken a family vacation together as well. She's hoping to adopt again and I told her a long time ago that we'd have to adopt at the same time again. Well looks like that's God's plan because when one of us gets held up, then the other of us gets held up. So I'm hoping we BOTH get moving really soon and quit holding each other up. LOL

Latest checkup and plans for the future

I had a doctor appointment last Wednesday. My numbers were down to 1112 and I now have a cyst in my uterus. My OB said the cyst should go away on it's own after I have a few periods.

We were talking about going back to CA for another FET in January, but after doing more thinking we think it might be best if we wait until March or April instead.

We have alot of work that needs to be done on our house. We've been doing it a little here and a little there, but we really want to get everything done. So if we wait until spring for the FET, that will give us time to finish off the house.

I have lost about 100 lbs over the course of a couple of years. During the past 8 months of waiting for the FET, hormones and then the miscarriage, I gained about 30 lbs. I want to lose at least 40 lbs before we do another transfer. That will put me 60 lbs from my final goal. So taking a break will give me that time I need to get healthy as well. I started working on losing weight again two weeks ago and so far I've lost 12.8 lbs towards my 40 lb goal!

I can't say right now that I'm looking forward to another FET, but I can say I'm looking forward to getting my house and health back in order. I think THEN I'll be ready to try another FET. :)