Still waiting. :(

Well this week wasn't our week either. I'm ok with it now, but when I talked to Arlene on Tuesday I was really upset. Then to hear about a women in Memphis who left her FOUR month old baby in a hot car while she went shopping!!!! I was just so upset that it had to be so hard for us.

I've been trying to hold my weight stable because Dr Kumar had asked me if I could. So far I've done ok with it. I decided this week that since I've got to wait on our adoption, I might as well start losing weight again. At least it will be something to get my mind off this adoption.

Will tomorrow be the day????

Tomorrow I'll be calling the clinic again to see of either of the donor families have completed their profiles. I'm trying to be optimistic about it.

I read about a lady that had been waiting 4 months just for the profile. :( Mind you the donor family had someone close to them pass away, but still....FOUR months!?!?!?

I'm just praying it doesn't take that long for us.

I'm to the point now that it doesn't even feel real. I can go all day sometimes without thinking about it even one time. Life is just not revolving around this adoption like it did with Zach's adoption. It SO helps to have destractions like Zach. :)

Wait another week.....

I talked to Arlene (the embryo coordinator) today and she said now there are 2 families looking to donate embryos and also another family looking to adopt them. She said she is just waiting for the donor families to send in their profiles. Once that is done then we can review the profiles and choose a set of embryos.

So while it's not bad news, it is 'wait another week' news. I'm a little dissappointed that we have to wait yet another week, but I keep reminding myself that this will all happen in God's time.

Looks like our transfer will be in July or August (just as I'd predicted).

Just another day

At least a few times a day I either thinking about, look up something for, or talk about our baby. I am just beyond excited to be adopting again.

Just one more day and I'll be calling the clinic to get another update. We are praying that this time the donor family will have completed their paperwork so we can review their profile.

Today I find out that Zach has been telling one of the neighborhood kids that he has a brother. Is he just wishing for a brother or is he fortelling the future??? We shall see!!

We are #1 on the list!!!

I am SO excited. Yesterday I called the clinic to find out if the Hispanic family decided to donate their embryos and to find out what number on the list we are.

So Arlene tells me "You are so fortunate. Our other families are on a long waiting list. Since you are looking for Hispanic embryos you don't have to wait on that list. You are the only ones looking for Hispanic." I want to tell her no I'm not lucky, I have God's blessing to adopt these babies. :)

So then the second good news is that the family did decide to donate their babies and so now are doing paperwork with the clinic to be able to donate them. Arlene said to call her back in another week to see where they are at.

We are praying that by next week the paperwork will be done and then we can review the profile a decide if these are to be our babies!!!

I cannot believe how close we are getting!!!

To my precious babies

I'm titling this to my babies (plural) because we will be implanting 2 embryos. This gives us a better chance of at least one survivng. I'm not sure why, but I feel the need to write to my babies.

To my precious babies,

You have been prayed for for so long. You Dad and I never dreamed that we would be able to carry you in my belly and see you be born. I don't know if you will both make it, but know that we will always love you both.

It means to world to me to know that you will soon be growing in my belly as you get big and strong. I promise you I will do my very best to protect you from all harm.

We are so grateful to your genetic parents who so selfishly gave you a chance to grow up. We will always hold a special place in our hearts for them.

I am so excited to make the trip to CA to finally meet you. As I type this you are probably already there waiting for me. I know that God is holding you until I can get there.

It won't be much longer my babies and I will be with you. We can't wait to watch you grow.

With all my love,
Mommy

OMGosh!!!

Today I called to talk to the embryo donation coordinator at the clinic today. I had been waiting fr her call for a week and finally decided to just call her back myself. She called me back a couple hours later.

I thought I was just talking to her about the process and such. Well she proceeds to tell me they have one family with Hispanic embryos and that there is NO waiting list for us!!!!!

So she said she is pretty sure this Hispanic family is going to donate and to call her back in 2 weeks to get the updated list of available embryos!!!

Once we receive that info we can review it and decide if these are the embryos for us. If they are then Dr Kumar will check them out and make sure they are good quality. Once he gives the ok then we get an attorney to draw up the paperwork, both families sign, and they begin the process of getting my body ready for pregnancy!!!!

So we could be in CA as early as June!!!!

I'm excited and scared all at the same time. Guess I better start looking for a hotel!!!